A Change

I could never have imagined how dramatically my world was going to change when I became a mama. It was bound to happen I know, but sitting down to reflect on life since Evan, reminds me of just how far myself (and The Janitor) have come. How much ground we have broken to get here. It hasn't been easy by any means, but we are here, exactly where we want to be, together.
Maybe it's because we are nearing a milestone in our lives (who said first birthday?), but thinking, is what I am doing plenty of lately!...

As soon as I discovered I was pregnant, I fell in love with the world. Viewing it as I never had before. How magical the changing seasons have become. How fascinating and beautiful nature and wildlife now are to me. Contented to watch the wind blowing leaves on the trees.

My life before didn't have time for these things, I had tunnel vision. No time to stop and take in my surroundings. No appreciation for the wonders we share our planet with (including each other).
On a more personal level, I am learning to be kind to myself. To slow down, be patient with myself and others. Taking a step back and admitting to struggles and defeat. Asking for help (i've never been any good at that) and enjoying daily routines, the small things.
This new way of 'being' seems to be working. I am calmer, happy, in love with life and especially my boys.
I can only hope that motherhood brings with it more life lessons, Evan has taught me so much already. It's amazing to see life through our childs' eyes.